Ok it's time to blog and via my iPod touch! The amount or precision needed is unbelievable, maybe after this rigourous training, my thumbs could turn put like megan fox's yessssssss. Wait guys how do I start a new paragraph on here...
I see it was the return button. Ok here it goes.
So from last year to now so much has changed, so is that to say that I've changed? I'd be losing if I said I wasn't and everyone else would be too. Not only have I gone through some weird and spectaculr experiences, I also have a new house and car, so this year has def had it's highlights.
I've met tonns of new peoplefrom Uni and friends of friends, cool but I feel as if something is wrong with me and it's only been these few months. I don't interact with any of them anymore, well not as srs as before, j dunno I feel as if I really just am v lazy and have too much fun by myself, but then I don't have fun at all, it's a strange dilemma and it only recently happened. I think one of the contributing factors is that I don't like large groups, eg if there were to be 2 options of which one was clubbing with friends or a night of chills with my friend eugene or even just a night at home by myself watching glee, I'd proba choose eugene and glee. I don't know why, even though I would of had a better time clubbing, I still would choose staying at home, knowing infCt it's be better, fucl so wierd.
One of the reasons I realised an I'm not afreid to say is that I've taken everyone I've met this year for granted. When I first got to UNO I had, wait Wtf iPod changed uni to UNO cool. Make friends so u won't be lonelygirl15 jeff, but now when I do have friends I don't make an effort to keep in touch or do anything gj jeff.
So like ultimately I'm pretty fucked.
Apart from that fuckage, first year of uni has gone by so quick, to the point that im reallly confused. Half my year I was in a abstract relationship in which to this day I hve no idea wat it was. It's the type where u are with the person a lot, and are basically "there" but ain't. Usually Itd move forward naturally, but in the end it failed. I think we were just fed up with eachother by the end of it, and the random shit, rumours, going to other peoples houses to "study" didn't help. I think I was just fed up in the end , and she was aswell. There was a spark that could of lit so brightly, butall the interfernces between the candle and the flame blew it out. I guess love doesn't wait haha
It's 2am almost I usually think wierd at this time, which is why my random blog is titled as it is, not bad.
I've been trying to crack down many things lately in my laboratory, one of which is life and how it's changing. So if I went back to a year ago now, just finishing by hsc and the me then thinking about what I'd be like 1 year ahead (now), I can honestly remember thinking how my life would e changed so much. Uni and all, but now after thinking back it really hasn't, even though I'm in my new house now, on this iPod touch waiting to go to work tomorow. The facts
Are all here, my life HAS chNged dramatically, more than I (me last year) had expected, yet the me now is dissapointed in the lack of change. Does this suggest that I think highly of myself to accomplish more than what's happened in this year? No, I don't think highly of myself at all, infact I live my life trying to break even in rvrrything I do, never aiming higher than that. I guess it just means, that I'm ungrateful to what life has given me, andthat I should be, another Fucked thing about me.
One thing I can't miss out that this year brought me was taylor swift and her music, if u read somehow this far, u knew it was coming. So I went into my laboratory again to try and understand why im so addicted to her. Not many guys like tswift pretty obv ey, does this mean I'm not a guy, penis is there so it can't be that. Yeh I love her music and the way it sounds but what else is it? Her looks arentthe best, Its prrtty obv that if I was basing what I liked on looks, I'd like alba more than swift, so it can't be that. So It must be personality?? But I don't even know her at all. All of these ideas and indications aren't correct, try implement this criteria to a celeb u are adicted to, u come to a dead end. So the conclusion that is, her music with her looks and with the personality that I've "created" for her combined make me insanely in like with her, it's creepy maybe, and it's not ordinary but something (which I failed to pinpoint) makes her seperate to other artists I love eg. John Mayer, therefore that something is probe cause she's a girl . Huh? Dunno
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